"You are an evolution. Believing that who you are is the summation of the things you do will limit you eventually. Your identity badges are a concept of your mind. Who you really are is far greater than that. You are not the summation of your parts. You are not defined by any one thing you do. You are not defined by the compilation of all the things you do neatly knitted together to create the someone you think you should be. You are no less valid, no less a person, without any one of them. You are not your job, your relationship, where you live, where you grew up, where you went to school, what you’re passionate about, what you do or what you did or where you’re going or where you’ve been. You just are. You are your existence, you are your awareness, you are your consciousness."
I noticed my existence this morning as I allowed myself to slowly wake. I rolled over to my side and made eye contact with my dog, Lily. We both just looked at each other for a few seconds... then she scooted closer to me. I held her to my chest and thought "I am here. You are here. We are here... just....living."
When my mind hits those mental breaks and I come face to face with the reality I so often cover up with the past or future, everything feels so still. I often repeat the term "be here now" in my head as a guide, but moments like that are very often fleeting as I glance over and see my forever growing "to do" list. I have to allow myself to take everything in steps and be aware of each step as it's happening instead of anticipating the next.
That was my biggest struggle learning to swing dance, I always anticipated my leads next step. From here on out I must try my best to go with the flow and feel for the next step rather than trying to determine it in advance.